For the first time since James died I saw a rainbow. It hung in the sky after a weekend of unexpectedly decent weather but one where we seemed to be waiting for the clouds & rain to come. Then finally a storm with all the wind, rain & power you would expect, except that before it was done it hung a rainbow in the sky.
For the first time I thought maybe the rainbows perfection sparkled b/c James had sent it to me or maybe was smiling behind it. I've been waiting for a signal, a sign and I'm hoping this was it. That my angel baby sent me a little reprieve from the storm that keeps raging in my mind & heart these days. If it is, I thank you my darling angel, mommy needed to feel & see your essence again.
Here is a quote from the Silent Grief - Child loss page on facebook that resonated with me today: