Today feels like a day of contradictions. 2 years ago today a little boy was born to neighbours of ours & his brief life would touch us deeply. He was born exactly 3 months after Jeven & we felt an instant connection to him. Although we knew he had a battle ahead of him we hoped & prayed for the best possible outcome. In life's cruel way, 25 days later he grew his wings. Back then, we did only what we knew how & sent support & food hoping to help his parents in some small way. Little did we know then that this would also be our reality almost a year later.
Today I am planning to bring over a card to honour Lucas' birthday. I am nervous but hope the gesture helps them to know we will never forget him.
In sharp contrast, my friend, one that I've come to know only because of having lost James is having her rainbow baby today. She has a scheduled C and may have already delivered him safely by now - fingers more tightly crossed then ever. I woke this morning anxious at the thought. I have a card for her as well, welcoming her miracle & remembering his older sister. All I have to do now is wait for word & in the mean time wait & pray for his safe arrival into this world.
What a strange contradiction, to have to write a birthday card to a child gone too soon, and a birthday card to a rainbow baby who's sister left too soon.
Please send all your prayers & best vibes for the birth of this very special little boy and that he arrive healthy into the arms of his very loving parents.
James, please hold Emma Jade's hand as she guides her little brother into this world safely. Please also give Lucas the warmest hug and remind him how much he is loved, remembered & missed by all but most of all by his parents.
Missing you & moved to tears often these days. I hoping you are always near & know how much you are loved & missed.