My anxiety reached a whole new level today. I have been thinking non stop about Friday & been flipping around looking at some info from other angel baby moms on pregnancy after loss. Then I realized that everything I heard in groups said that the mom's knew something was wrong, I feel like something is wrong. It was then that I decided I had to do something. I couldn't sit & wait for the next 3 days, this level of anxiety can't be healthy for anyone let alone a baby, if it's still alive. Then the next brain wave - I have an extra requisition for ultrasound - the one I never used to confirm heartbeat! Next obstacle getting an appointment - I called & they had a cancellation for today - booked! Now all I have to do is sit & wait....the hardest part.
I am terrified & prepared all at the same time for something to be wrong - D&C is what I'd be facing. I'm also desperate for my gut to be wrong - please be wrong. Only a little under 2 hours now until i know. Next posting will either be- here we go again or -I can breath again - for now.
James, please be near during the ultrasound, I'm going to need all the extra strength I can get.